College

Well, I've been at Berea College for about 5 days now.

So far, I dunno how I really feel about this.

Yeah, I like being more or less on my own, my classes and job* (Which actually start tomorrow) Seem pretty good. I've met some nice enough people (And a few girls I'm interested in), yadda yadda yadda.

So, what's the problem? The obvious one. I'm homesick as fuck. To try and deal with it, I thought "What did I have at home that I don't here?"
Well, there's no couch (I liked sitting on the couch with the computer). But, I've got my bed, and it works just fine in the couch's place, so that's not it.
No kitchen/missing the food I had at home (I can't help it, I realllllly like some food that I or my mom often cooked). However, my roommate has a fridge, there's a microwave in the laundry room on this floor, plenty of nearby restaurants (And places that deliver), and even the school food is pretty awesome (The school food had nothing to do with me not eating for three days, that was just me being weird). Ain't that either.
No cable TV (I miss Animal Planet and Discovery). Well, really I hadn't watched as much TV as usual in months, and I can find a lot of stuff online now. Plus, I brought all my DVDs and a TV and DVD player, not to mention the movies and Doctor Who episodes on my computer and the Titan Maximum DVD I've already purchased down here. TV isn't the reason.
No car (I can't go places when I get bored or want to toy hunt). I actually haven't had a car of my own for a few months, since I went ahead and got rid of the shit-bucket Jeep, as I couldn't bring it here anyways. On the other hand though, I was able to use my mom's car to get around when I could. At least there's some places in walking distance (And biking distance, but, well... more on that later) and Berea actually runs a shuttle into town on certain days of the week. This one still sucks, but I know it can't be the cause.
No AC. In fucking August. Yeah, fuck that.

And so on. But, no matter what, I can deal with that material sort of shit. I can order toys online, walk, lay in bed and watch movies, whatever. It's not hard, and I'm learning to enjoy some of it.

So, why am I homesick?

My mom and my dog.

I really fucking miss them.

Maybe I didn't always get along perfectly with mom, and maybe my dog shed way too fucking much (I would find his hair in my damn belly button), but, you know what? I couldn't have asked for better ones. They just fit, you know? While I've been away from home and not seen mom for longer times than I have already here (Usually while visiting my dad in Texas), I'm sure knowing that this will go on for months has some affect on me.
And they were familiar. People just don't like change. It can be scary. But, you have to deal with it to move forward in life, and I have quite a long way to go forward to accomplish my dreams of comicbook artist stardom.

Oh well. I'm sure that once classes start, and I start getting out of my dorm more, and making more friends that this will all clear up, and I'll settle into a routine and this will be familiar.

Oh, also, on my third fucking day here, someone stole my goddamn bike.

~Monty


*Note: Berea gives all the students a job on campus. I'm going to be a janitor in the music department.